I am not going to lie, this post was difficult to write.
I have been writing this blog for over a year and managed to avoid publishing my story, until now.
I feel it is only fair that in sharing so much about my healthy lifestyle today, I also show you where it came from.
I, too, have a weight loss story.
Like many people, I drank heavily in college. I stayed out late, ate poorly, made bad decisions, and put the weekends before school on too many occasions.
You can probably guess that fitness was definitely not a top priority during this time, either.
There were weeks that I would drink more days than I wouldn’t, and nights lost to Netflix binges, food binges, or both.
Something I am terribly ashamed of? I could put away a foot long and a half with a family size bag of Cheetos without even batting an eye.
I had a lot of the self esteem issues that I still battle today. I don’t like to remember this period but I hope that by sharing it, I can motivate and help others to make the changes I have made.
At 5’5″ I had never weighed more than 120 lbs. In less than 6 months during my freshman year of college I gained over 30 lbs.
I stopped weighing myself when I hit 155, so I honesly don’t know what my peak weight got to be.
Being someone with a naturally small frame, this was a huge change in appearance.
To be completely honest, I do not have many pictures from when I gained weight. I couldn’t stand how I looked or how I felt, and at one point I made sure little evidence remained.
Although I had known I needed a change, my first realization came on my 20th birthday.
The gifts I received that year consisted of;
a set of weights
a medicine ball
a workout video
and a couple of fashion magazines.
Needless to say, I got the hint.
My first instinct was humiliation and I turned to food, as I always had.
But then I got angry.
Angry at myself for letting it go on as long as it had and angry I had let my weight take over my life.
It was hard but this is where I started my journey.
I tried many different kinds of exercise to figure out what I liked.
I took boot camp classes
I tried yoga
I went to dance classes
You name it, I tried it!
For a long time I expected instant results. When I didn’t see the changes I wanted I would revert to old habits.
Thus began my ‘yo-yo’ phase.
I would try one thing only to walk away when it didn’t work fast enough.
I know now that this is normal in a weightless journey.
Those looking to better themselves and their health have to not only learn about the process, but learn patience with the process.
Over time I figured out not only what worked for me, but what I liked.
The part where I not only discovered my likes and dislikes, but I got to know myself, my strengths, and my weaknesses. In a way I learned to love myself, despite my flaws.
Now, don’t get me wrong, its a work in progress. More days then not I find myself more insecure than I should be, but don’t we all?
My weightless story, like many others, is still being written but I am pretty proud of myself for whats already on the pages.
While some weeks are better than others, I have found balance in my nutrition and exercise, one that I want to share with others who are struggling.
If you ever have any nutrition or fitness inquiries, please feel free to contact me! I am always happy answer questions and offer my assistance!
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